25th September 2008

if were to put in words to say how much I love you.. I wouldnt measure up..

thanks so much dear..

Jeffrey took me for a ride in a car.. with much dizziness confusing.. I'm not unhappy.. I'm just disappointed with myself for having motion-sickness..

scariest part is when the car engine-died.. omg. and when the slope we were on.. was not helping us.. lol.

dear quite surprise for few things that I know abt cars.. I've been on cars for 14 years.. maybe 13years to be exact.. only 5years without car.. so, I guess it come naturally..

thought dear few things to take note.. give feedback.. better to tell him the bad things first than to let him experienced it.. Singapore is practically a very safe country.. nothing much to learn.. if in Malaysia.. there's alot thing to take note..

back when I was young.. we really safe guard our cars.. thanks to mama's over-worrying that our car have not been hijacked before.. so mama's nagging all come to me.. and I'm telling him what to do. what not to do. not to say I'm pro la.. just wanna let him know ma..

went round and round.. heng dear still know the basic where to and not to go.. I was very dizzy.. until came to a point.. my stomach couldnt take it.. i went to poop and vomit.. ==" really hate that feeling.. I'm still feeling the round and round motion in my head.. think I'm gonna hit the snooze button soon to get some rest..

tml will be meeting the girls~ lolx hopefully I wont spend much.. else, I got nothing left to save..

Pekchek now.. finding any survey to to..grr!

3 names thats in your mind

\ Jeffrey \ Leewah \ HweeHwee \

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now

\ teeshirt \ shorts \

Three things you can't live without?

\ love \ spicy hot stuff \ STUFF ANIMAL! \

What's your fav cake?

\ icecream cakes! \

Are you currently in a relationship?

\ yes \

Have you ever been given a rose?

\ yes \

What is your all-time favorite romance movie?

\ as long as it's with the person I love.. every movie IS a romantic movie \

Have you ever been in love?

\ yeah.. head over heels.. \

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?

\ yes. I believe in Love at First Sight too \

What's/Who is your current problem?

\ what? MONEY is my current problem. who? MYSELF is my current problem \

Have you ever had your heartbroken?

\ definately \

Your thoughts of online or long distance relationship?

\ online? dont take it too seriously.. in this digital world.. everything can be faked. long distance? unless the guy is willing to fly over just to see you, give it up. \

Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?

\ yeaps. but I'm glad tt it dint end badly.. \

Do you believe on the statement "once cheater always a cheater?"

\ yes. unless the person prove him/herself is worth your love again. I reckon you'd becareful. \

How many kids do you want to have?

\ currently none. though my thoughts of having kids start to change ( SCARY! ) I'm afraid of being a bad mother. if I have a supportive family.. I dont see why not have more than 2? \

What is/are your favorite color(s)

\ black \ midnight blue \ red \ gold \

Do you believe you only love once?

\ nope. love can happen anywhere anytime. is the matter of is it in the right place at the right time? \

are you and your ex(s) friends?

\ we're "bro n sis" but I rather not keep in contact with each other. \

things you look in a guy/girl

\ broad ( hopefully muscular ) shoulder \ attentiveness \ cooks! \ musically incline \ ABILITY TO PREDICT MY MOODSWINGS =) \

at what age did you start liking the opposite sex?

\ can I say at 10? \

what song do u want to be played at your wedding?

\ all the wonderful 80's or early 90's love songs.. they just make me feel so touched \

bored bored.. sitting in SP's main library doing nothing but blogging and starring at this computer screen.. argh!

morning went for the so call interview.. was bit skeptical about the job.. cause mom asked me to take up another tutoring instead.. less xingku.. but oh well.. I have friends working with me.. hopefully I'll b a usefull person again.. and our friendship wouldnt be ruined because of a job.. I'm like placing my friendship in jeoprody as I'm in need.. DESPERATE need for money.. all thanks to that stupid 300 damaged that I did yesterday.. [ will update post when it's done~ u'll b amazed! ]

and of course, constance reminder from my parents to... well, be independent.. mum scolded me for buying mooncake home the other day.. so much for being a filial daughter.. I know my 50$ is not worth a penny to u.. but it's my own effort money.. zzz dunnid to remind me that I need to plan for the future. I already planned it out.. fk it. damn sian.

friends thought I'm stupid to move out.. it's not my choice.. if papa doesnt work anymore.. our family can no longer sustain the house.. YOU THINK I NOT WORRIED?? my situation is different from u all.. so stop telling me I'm stupid u dumb ass! at times I wonder if I ever should tell my friends the truth or not.. of course, I'm not saying my besties.. grrr damn pekchek

Alex told me problems abt his r/s.. which again make me feel guilty for doing the same thing I did to Jeff.. but we're not as extreame as his.. Alex is very easliy jealous.. I guess being his gf kinda harsh too.. no personal life at all..

yesterday, chatted on the phone with my Audi brother,Reeve.. he cooks, he entertaints, he plays guitar and HE PSYCO YOU! zzz nvm.. keep me entertaint jiu hao.. lol chatted until 5am.. crazy.. never call me wake up also.. zzz heng never late to meet ahma.. dear zhuzhu neh.. sleep so much.. today meeting him later in the night.. cant wait to see him.. and wish him HAPPY BIRTHDAY! lol ^^ wonder how dear's friend celebrated for him.. meanwhile.. maumau just have to rot here and there lo.. this time.. I waited for him for 6.5hours! beat tt dear! =X

what's for pressie? since the other day he dint like it.. that 78dollar's mooncake chess set.. guess I'll have to search again bah.. most unlikely will be getting a pressie for him.. he has everything he need.. and I'm broke.. and I cant cook.. =\

haix. is our r/s build to last? how long? I also wan to prepare myself before getting hurt again.. but if I do, I'm not letting myself to fall in love again.. and being that, Jeffrey dear can feel it too.. the number of people supporting our r/s is not much.. rather only a handful.. wishing us to break and giving me rude comments even from my own family.. is being with him so bad that they have to do that? each time they say, what can I do? defend? it will only create more things for them to say about us.. I'm so close to giving up, when I did something utterly wrong, not wrong for my perception, but wrong for others.. people judge me differently.. I did what I did to get something.. and I'm not being stupid because ultimately I already made up my mind.. I'm weaker now.

y cant I think of the good side of r/s? I'm always so negative.. so pessimistic..

few days ago chatted with Reeve reg supernatural stuff.. I'm glad someone finally had more powers than I do.. ok I call them powers, maybe u would call them "stuff".. since small I'm very very afraid of ghost or unnatural being.. tt's y I couldnt stand watching horror or ghost movie.. if u belive me, each time u watches a ghost story, some of it will be attracted to u.. believe me when I say, your deceased relatives is somewhere around you when u talk about them.. we shared much of what we encountered from young.. it's all in the past and I wish to put it behind me.. I'm rather thankfull that I cant see them.. guess if I do, I'll be in the hospital bed.. haha. anyway, telling people who DONT BELIEVE is a waste of time.. dont promt me reg this

just got back from CozyCot HolyGrail Party 2008! wasted never got to stay for long.. haix..

bought stupid "slimming" tea, which actually is detox tea.. actually I'm against it.. but jie lo.. wan to buy.. zzz.. then that become the CORE of mummy and our arguement.. damn sian.

bought Clinelle travel packet.. Ettusais Acne range.. heard that of it's good review so bought this two to try out.. =) this alone cost me ard $114.. plus the stupid tea.. add up to $203plus! lol ==" dunno y my sis wan buy also.. then I sign up for this self improvement class.. which cost me $88 dollars more.. @.@ dunno y spent so much.. grr! fk it

anyway, Ettusais give me free gifts.. lol so good.. smmore is my favourite.. LIP GLOSS! omg! heng I never buy Stilla's lip gloss.. wanted to get it so much.. but abit too expensive.. $31plus for one tube.. crazy! elf better. hahas..

here's pictures to enjoy..

the freebies I gotten after that 300plus dollars of Damage is done. these samples could actually last me MONTHS!

[ Top, From right: Ginvera New Shower Series, Bio-Essense Total Defence Against Aging, Bio-Essense Face Lifting, La Roche-Posay Targeted Breakout Corrector]

[ Bottom, From right: Ashnic bath scented soap, two small purple paper soap, rather cute I say.. ]

the bio-essense stuff..

the highly raved Foltene Hair Loss..

[ From right: Ginvera cracked heel and elbow cream, highly raved Nu Teen anti-pimple gel ]

[ Top, From right: Laneige Water Bank Essence, Laneige Dull eye cream?, Loreal True Match Foundation, - some massage vouchers-, Phillips Wain one day pass.. Phillips Wain is something like Amore, just to let u all know.. , DRX 40% voucher.. DRX mainly sell skincare , OSIM $100 uSqueeze voucher]

[ Bottom, From right: Vichy spf50 Sunscreen, Ahava voucher... another pampering treat! , Revive voucher.. much posh-er version ]

[ Top, From left: ColorBar Complimentary Creative Highlight voucher ]

[Bottom, From left: Perfect Potion 15% gift voucher, The Face Shop voucher, Kotec purchase voucher ]

[ From right to left : LuxAsia Essensials purchase voucher - in a form of letter.. weird - , Rustic Nirvana voucher - Massage place - ]

[ From top: Avalon voucher.. DaiDoMon voucher.. Dome meal voucher ]

[ Top, from right: Original Source Deep Soak Bath Foam, Skinc $100 dollar voucher - most raved about their serums - , ORA mineral gift certificate ]

[ Most left: Kotex pad samples ]

ARE YOU:
►Perfect: NOPE
►Tall: NO
►In your pajamas: NO
►Left handed: YES!
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LAST
►Friend you saw: ERICSON
►Talked to on the phone: JEFFREY
►Person to text you: FRANKY
►Is today better than yesterday: DEFINITELY
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FAVORITE:
►Number: 3,5,8,9
►Color: BLACK, MIDNIGHT BLUE, RED
►Food: SPICY! KIMCHI! SUSHI! WAFFLE! ZHUZHU!
►Place: JEFFREY'S HEART =x
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QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
► SWITCH OFF THAT IRRITATING ALARM OF MINE

Q: Do you have anything bothering you
► ERM, LIKE WHO DOESNT!

Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
► THEATERS? BEEN AWHILE~

Q: Where is the last place you went?
► TUTEE'S HOUSE

Q. Do you smile a lot?
► PEOPLE GAVE ME THAT "WHAT THE HECK IS THIS STUPID GIRL SMILLING FOR? " LOOK FREQUENTLY..

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
► NOT WHEN I WANTED AN ANSWER FROM GOD

Q: Are you a friendly person?
► I USED TO BE, NOT ANYMORE

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
► MY BED

Q: Why did you sleep there?
► CAUSE IT'S THE ONLY PLACE I CAN SLEEP?

Q: When was the last time u cried?
► GOSH! MILLION MINITUES AGO!

Q: What was your last thought before going to bed?
► HOW TO MAKE THE BEST OUT OF MY LIFE NOW!

Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?
► 7

Q: What do you hear right now?
► SOUNDS OF MY FAN? AND TAP WATER

Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
► YES! MY EYES ARE TIRED!

Q: What's your favorite month?
► NONE! AS LONG AS THE MONTH DONT MOVE! I'M HAPPIER!
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EMOTIONS:
Are you missing someone right now?
► EVERY PARTNER WILL MISS THE OTHER PARTNER

Are you single?
► NOT SINGLE AND NOT AVAILABLE

Are you tired?
► DEFINATELY!

Are your parents still married?
► FORTUNATELY YES!
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BASICS:
►Real name? KAREN
►Age? 19
►Eyes? I SAY BLACK OTHERS SAY BROWN
►Male or female? I GOT BOOBS! FEMALE!
►Single? TAKEN!
►Crushing? LOVING!
►Smart? I'M DUMB AS AN ASS!
►Hair color? HALF BLACK HALF BROWN
►Sweats or Jeans? JEANS LOVER!
►Phone or Camera? CAMERA! WORLD WITHOUT WORDS = CANON!
►Health freak? WHEN I'M COOKING YES! WHEN I'M EATING HELL NO!
►Righty or lefty? LEFT LEFT LEFT RIGHT LEFT
►SMOKE or Drink? I DRINK
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FIRSTS:
►First best friend? A FRIEND ACTING AS A TORTISE DURING MY KINTERGARDEN I CANT REMEMBER HIS NAME.
►First award? FIRST IN WHOLE KINDERGARDEN FOR CHINESE
►First enemy? I'M A LOVEABLE PERSON =D
►First pet? FISHY FISHY FISHY!
►First vacation? GOTTA BE SOMEWHERE IN MSIA. KUANTAN?

CURRENTLY:
►Eating? I'M DONE WITH DINNER
►Drinking? SALIVA
►Listening to? FANS' BLOWING SOUND, PLASTIC SHAKING, MOM'S COUGHING, TAP RUNNING WATER.
►Plans for tommorow? BDAY DATE WITH JEFFREY!
►Waiting for? BIGBIG JOB AND PAYCHECK!
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WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER:
►Shorter or taller? I'M A SUCKER FOR TALLER GUYS!
►Romantic or spontaneous? Y CANT WE HAVE BOTH? =x
►Sensitive or loud? BOTH AGAIN!
►Hook-up or in a relationship? R/S I'M SERIOUS WHEN I STARTED IT!
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HAVE YOU EVER:
►Drank hard drinks? YEAH! AND I ALMOST KNOCK MYSELF OUT!
►Lost glasses/contacts? NOT WEARING ANY
►Ran away from home? I DREAMT OF IT
►Broken someone's heart? YES.
►Been arrested? I AINT TT NAUGHTY YET
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ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
►Do you like someone? I'M IN LOVE DUDE
►Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? I'M NOT HAPPY, BUT I'M THANKFULL

1. Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
~ Jeffrey dear! =X I wanna be as sticky as I could.. HE'S MINE!! muahahah! =X ~

2. Who do you blame for your mood today?
~ myself lo.. ~

3. Have you ever seen a dead body?
~ nope. I would cry and shiver if I ever see one ~

4. What should we do w/ stupid people??
~ BE LIKE THEM! =D ~

5. How long do you think you will live?
~ not long.. my life line is short.. guess I'll have to give birth earlier if I ever want to see my children growing up! =X ~

6. What was the first thing you did this morning?
~ switch off that irritating alarm from my handphone~

7. The color of carpet in your bedroom?
~ no carpet.~

9. Last person you went out to dinner with?
~ Jeffrey I think~

10. Are you spoiled?
~ definately. I'm an irritating person.. that likes to spend and spend and spend! ~

11.Do you drink lots of water?
~ I used to but no longer. learnt it from my bf xD ~

12. What toothpaste do you use?
~ Colgate ~

13. How do you vent your anger?
~ depending who's fault, if his, I'll punch and bite him.. if other people's I'll probably write it down here and draft it.. either that I'm just gonna spend my money on stuff that I probably dont need.. or I'll just find a nice quiet place, sit down and listen to my songs.. =D ~

14. The last compliment you received?
~ I dont remember.. my eyes are pretty? xD said by the IPSA makeup artist.. ~

15. What are you doing this weekend?
~ hehe.. surprise for my dear~

16 When was the last time you threw up?
~ I guess when I came back from ChangChun tt time.. I kept vomitting.. not feeling well.. ~

17. Is your best friend a virgin?
~ can I consider it yes? ~

18. What theme does your room have?
~ fengshui theme~ xD ~

19. When was the last time you were at a party?
~ I dunno.. BUT I'M GOING TO A PARTY ON SUNDAY! WOOHOO~!! =D ~

20. Are you a mama's child or a daddy's child?
~ mummy's daughter ~

21. Would you ever join the military?
~ CHUNKY HUNKY BOTAK BOYS!! as much as I LOVE military~ I dont think I ever want to be in their position.. I got too little brain for that.. ~

22. The last website you visited?
~ www. friendster.com tt's where all these quizzes come from.. ~

23. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
~ let me think.. I nt tt type who will cam whore frequently so.. I cant rmb who. =X ~

25. Last person you went to the movies with?
~ Jeff. just today. movies are nicer to catch when with him.. ~

26. What did you do/will you do for your birthday this year?
~ cant rmb. so long~ Jan man! ~

27. Number of layers on your bed?
~ 3.~

28. Is anything alive in your room?
~ yes. my softtoys! ~

29. Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
~ back a week.. ~

30. What are you looking forward to right now?
~ SATURDAY BDAY DATE! SUNDAY HOLY GRAIL PARTY! MONDAY NIGHT DATE! ~

The last time you actually hung out with your friend?
\\ wow I dunno~ but definately gonna have GIRLS NIGHT OUT soon! =D \\

What's bothering you right now?
\\ things that shldnt happen and my state-of-life \\

Do you drink/smoke?
\\ I drink, but rarely nowadays.. no time for it.. \\

What kind of phone do you have?
\\ Sony Erricson, infact it's my first time using it. haha. == \\

Wallpaper on your computers desktop?
\\ white blank \\

Wallpaper on your phone?
\\ receipts that me and my sis's dining in Crystal Jade \\

Next time you will hug someone?
\\ depends on my mood \\

Is there something about you that you don't think you'd ever tell anyone?
\\ I guess everyone has a secret? \\

Are you wearing anything on your feet?
\\ nope \\

What is the last thing you drank today?
\\ chinese tea \\

Closest black object?
\\ my watch? \\

Who the last person to talk to you on the phone?
\\ Jeffrey \\

Who was the last person to send you a text message?
\\ Franky =X \\

If you could have one person with you right now who would it be?
\\ of course, Jeffrey dear.. he's someone special to me~ \\

Anyone you want to kill?
\\ you bet! \\

What are you eating?
\\ nothing. I'm done with dinners.. \\

Do you believe in soul mates?
\\ yeaps. but I dont believe in finding one.. nt so lucky! \\

What do you want to be when you grow up?
\\ I'm already growing old! I wont tell my goals/ dreams now, but when I acheived it, I shall tell u then. =D \\

Where do you live?
\\ Singapore the little red dot! \\

What did you do last night?
\\ play games until late in the wee hours \\

Do you miss someone right now?
\\ like duh~ anyone with partners must be missing their other halfs right now.. \\

Do you think they miss you too?
\\ I hope so, but yeah. lol X= I know I'm thick skinned \\

What are you going to do after this?
\\ plan for tml's day out.. and audi if there's any time left for me to play~ =X \\

Do you prefer day or night?
\\ I'm an night owl.. \\

Have you ever slept over 12 hours?
\\ u can say beyong 12hours.. =D \\

Who honestly knows everything about you?
\\ God \\

Vanilla or Chocolate?
\\ I'm cool with anything \\

What do you wear more: shorts, slacks, jeans, or sweatpants?
\\ I'm a jeans type of girl.. \\

How would your friends describe you?
\\ weird? =X lol! \\

How old would you want to be when you settle down or get married?
\\ when I was young, I planned to get married at the age of 20.. but many people have "scolded" me with my unrealistic dreams.. so I now dont plan to get married! =X maybe have children will do.. =X THE FUTURE IS HARD TO DECIDE! maybe tml I'm getting married! =D \\

Anyone broken your heart?
\\ you bet! \\

Have you ever waved to someone and realized it wasn't the person?
\\ like duh~ \\

Would you choose love over money?
\\ If I'm desperate for money~ it will come first, otherwise, it'll be love~ \\

Are you excited for school?
\\ nope. I hate sch. mind you I'm getting this diploma to please my parents only~ \\

Someone on your mind?
\\ yeap. my partner \\